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thoughts on being whole when you have holes...

"...not that I have already obtained it or have already become perfect, but I press on so that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by Christ Jesus." Philippians 3:12 As I walked by an old 1800's graveyard tonight, I couldn't help but stare at the tombstones...stare at the names...stare at the dates. Some were mere infants when they died and some lived to be over 100 years old. The only thought that crossed my mind was that I didn't want to ever take this life for granted. The enemy quickly entered the scene and began to discourage me by reminding me of all of my failures, of the gaping holes that were left in my heart. I couldn't focus on anything else. A tear trickled down my cheek, then another. I knew God was catching every one of them, but I couldn't help but feel defeated for many reasons today. I kept walking, and as I rounded the bend 200 feet from my car, one sentence popped in my head, "Your holes have made you whole". I stopped. Immediately I knew that my Savior was romancing me in only a way that He can. All alone, he met me on that path. These holes of mine, they brought me to the Lord, and still bring me to the Lord. They allow my heart the need to be filled, and I run to Him because I know He alone fills it with His love. These holes cause me to strip away the veil that shuts out the light that hides the face of God from me. They bring me to my knees in total desperation. This is why I smile...this is why I press on in joy...this is why I thank God for the holes...because only then am I truly whole. "The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet." Romans 16:20


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