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the grace to be and the room to become...

I was playing raquetball today with my boyfriend, and it was so the beginning and at the end, but not the middle. I was doing good (at least for me). Then, about one hour into it, I got so mad at one point. I couldn't return anything, no matter how hard I tried. I couldn't even talk and thought as if I was going to cry. One thing about me (a not so good part about me...I have many, but this stands out the most), I hate to feel like I am failing/weak or looking like an idiot. I am very hard on myself. I definitely felt like I was looking like an idiot. I was so frustrated with myself. He could see my mounting frustration. I was starting to give up. I mean, why play when all you do is watch a blue bouncy ball hit one wall after another (sometimes hitting you square in the bootie) and your racket never makes contact? I didn't see the pooint. Joseph took one look at me and said, " need to play out your frustration instead of giving up. Just play it out and it will get better. Put your frustration into your swing." It stuck with me. I told him I just needed a minute...I was really mad at myself and how I was playing (I am very competitive against myself). He gave me the grace to be (mad) and then with his simple words, gave me the room to become (improve). Those words stuck and changed the rest of my game. He still But it was the best fun I have ever had getting beat! As I was reading tonight I thought about Jonah and the disciples, and Noah, and Abraham, and Paul and the countless women and men of the Bible. God didn't let any of His children stay the way they were...he had bigger, better plans. He offered and they believed. We all know the stories...they would become...but it was only first because of His grace. "The Lord your God is in your midst. A victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will be quiet in His love, He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy." Zephaniah 3:17


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