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grasping for water...

Sometimes it feels as if I am grasping for water...things that I just can't hold on to. I guess I hope that somehow, some way, I will get more than just a drop when I open up my fist as I raise it up out of the water...but I'm always left with nothing but a memory that I once had something, but couldn't keep it in my grasp. I suppose David felt this way when his first born son was sentenced to die. For seven days he sat pleading with the Lord, asking him to spare his son. He was desperate to hold on. Yet, once his son died and he had received the news, there he was, rising from the ground he had sat on for seven days, washing and anointing himself, and changing his clothes-going into the house of the Lord and worshipping Him. Once done, he went to his house, where he ate. His servants no doubt were stunned that he seemingly, let go of all he was holding onto and they didn't understand. His reply was a lesson rooted in the depths of theology-of a God who feels, a God who created man in His image to be affected by him, a God who hears our cries and changes the course of our lives if it is His will. David simply said, "While the child was still live, I fasted and wept; for I said, 'Who knows, the Lord may be gracious to me, that the child may live. But now he has died, why should I fast? Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me." David understood and had such an intimate knowledge of God that he knew he would hear his plea and he knew he had the power to change the course of his sons life if it was his will and through his plea, David's intimacy with God returned...turning a loss into a victory. I have much to learn through this story- more than me typing on a keyboard would allow. You see, the story didn't end there. God took his first son, then blessed him with another one-one that he loved. David could now grasp for something that he could hold on to, something that was blessed by God. His pain made way for his joy and his intimacy returned to the one that he loved...the One that loved him.


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