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As I study the Easter story this week, according to Matthew, Mark, Luke and John, I am intrigued by the doubt of the disciples. We all know the story of "doubting Thomas", so the Christian community has dubbed him...but it wasn't just Thomas, it was all of the disciples. Even more so, it was after the resurrection that they doubted. I mean, how much more do you need? They had done ministry with Him, they had eaten with Him, and declared that He was the Son of God - yet, after Jesus' crucifixion, when Jesus was no longer around, they began to doubt. "When they saw Him, they worshiped Him, but some were doubtful." Matthew 28:17, "When they heard that He was alive and had been seen by her [Mary], they refused to believe it...they did not believe those who had seen Him after He had risen." Mark 16:11, 14), "But they were startled and frightened and thought that they were seeing a spirit." Luke 24:37. If we are honest, we have all doubted at one point in our lives, and still may be - doubted our salvation, if this is really where God wants us to be, doubted our motives, our outcomes, doubted the entire idea of God, our entire lives. We doubt because we fear the "unknown", what we can't see and often what we can. But the promise remains - perfect love drives out fear, and where there is no fear, there is no "unknown". In the kingdom of Christ there are NO unknowns. We know the beginning, Jesus is with us through the middle, and we know the end that is eternal. We know because we have His word, His Holy Spirit, His promise. We are required to live by faith. I don't know about you, but that is incredibly tough. It requires a steadfastness, a discipline, a love that is higher than anything on earth. Most importantly, it requires the Gospel to be heard and spoken time and time again. After Jesus' resurrection, He appeared to two men on the road to Emmaus and to the disciples. The first Gospel incident to be heard...and at the sound of it they were praising God. You see, God didn't abandon them because of their doubts...He made a way, through His resurrection, for them to come to Him. I still have moments of doubt, many of them. I recognize that doubting is a tool the enemy uses to draw us away from our Savior...but, I also know it is a tool that draws us closer to our Savior if we let it - running straight to His word and resting in the fact that He has this...He has this whole world in His hands. The Gospel is not just for the unbeliever, it is for believers is our manna in the wilderness of doubt, it is our Truth in the empty, it is our life. "Thus it is written, that the Christ would suffer and rise again from the dead the third day, and that repentance for forgiveness of sins would be proclaimed in His name to all the nations..." Luke 24:46-47


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